Xmas Mood...

All day long i've been thinking what i really want for this coming Xmas...
Nothing in my mind right now.. I just think too much about my own situation right now.. Depression is all conquering me... Huhu... Hate this!

Well Xmas is just around the corner... Where im gonna be to celebrate the day? U can guess... But i still have nothing in mind as well...

Last week my parents came to KK and ask me to spend them for shopping... Xmas shopping for sure... I cant say NO... So i end up with some money difficulties actually... But nothing to worry coz i did it as my pleasure...

Once we get a gud job.. Our parents will feel great and happy for us... And that is the pay-back time kan... Hehe...

This coming Xmas, my family still have no exact planning on how we gonna celebrate it... Well, some says we have it on 26th which is there will be a family gathering from my mum's side from Tambunan... The party will be here in Ranau... Well, that sounds great i think... But as usual im still thinking whether im gonna be here or at my fiance's house this year... Just like last year i was in KK...

My two brothers from west will be coming home... Wow sioknya... So long didnt meet up with them.. So now it is the time to get together.. Have some chit chat and drinking session with all the siblings and other relatives...

Im trying my best to get the feeling of Xmas... But im totally not into it... Not much outing this days and just stay home feeling lonely and depress... How sad i sound... Am i? Huhu....

I just wish i can have the best Xmas this year... Hehehe....