Hello there...
Just come back from a long long rest....now i'm back and got many things to jot down here....
I woke up this morning with a so-so feeling to face the day...not sure what i feel inside...recently i've got many things running through my minds... this thing la..that thing la...oh no...why this could happen??? Well, things that we always expect to be happened not always happen just like we're expecting it to be...
In terms of life...i could say i am happy now...and healthy enough for going through this life rite now...but are u really sure that u are really happy for what u have now and are u really sure that u are healthy enough??? that questions might be running and in ur minds now...thinking back the happy moment u have in ur life...yep, u consider that u are now happy..plus what u have now and plus u have someone to love u...hahaha...funny rite...yes of course, we could consider that as a happy moment or maybe happiness in ur life... but there is a question... Do all these will last forever?? think..and think....
Some maybe thought that all they have now will last forever...yeah..i agree with that... but for me...i still have a long way to go...i havent found the real life that would make me happy...also i havent found a guy that consider as my future husband... that would be my partner for my life till my last breathe... so i cannot say that i would happy for the rest of my life... what i dream for is still far enough for me to achieve..i have to move on and i have to try harder and achieve that....but for sure, we can do somthing to it as we want all the happiness to be last forever...
For some reason, i had the feeling of hates and sad about some ppl.... but i dont want it to be bad and become worst....i know i have to do something... sometimes we need to be firm with someone in terms of what we like and dislike... they always think that they have the right to make the decision but actually we are the one who have the right...so i think i should tell them that i rather be like this and not like that... in some aspects, yes they are right but in choosing my partner... i cannot shut up and let them choose...i know what i do and i know that whatever it takes now..all the bad or good things happen later on...i will be the one who face it...not u all...so plez give some consideration for me in this thing... i rather be ur only daughter who cares about you two and look after you two till the end of my life...just plez stop saying that he is not perfect for me and i have the time to choose anyone else...if u all think that having a relationship is easy but for me it is not easy... one has many things to do before having a serious relationship with someone.. its not choosing a ripe apple for u to eat..but it is choosing ur rite partner for ur life....
Deep down in my heart..i was really sad bout what have you did to me all this while..but i'm telling myself that u two are my parents and i have to respect you...but when this thing happen again and again..i'm totally fed up with all your joking and faking faces... i'm begging u....if HE is not as good as what i am thinking then i am wrong...but i already chose this way..and i am commited to him...i hope u could listen to me and pray for me...
That is one of the thing that keeping running in my minds... but hopefully everything will be fine la kan... and there is another thing i would like to share here...
My course as a teacher in IPGM Kampus Keningau... well well well...as i said before.. assignment and assignments..so many wei... i cant tell u how many becoz me also cant count already since so stress becoz of it... hahaha....
This week is actually the school holidays... and i have spent my holidays in tambunan and of course KK...well, as i plan before.. i will finish all my assignments in this week but things are not happening just like what we're planning kan..huhuhu... there is some changes...in which i have to take a fully rest all this week becoz my cousin is coming back also and he always using the PC...i have no choice becoz the PC was his..then i can only stay at home, makan and tidur..hahaha..keep mengemukkan diriku...
Ya..ya..ya... i need to do something..if not i will die and distress again...well, actually i did a liltle bit of my assignments.. only the PSV assignments la..but still got many bah...so i did the rest juga..org bilang lama2 jadi bukit kan..it is better than nothing kan...hahaha... Thinking back all the assignments we've got...i cant imagine how can we all finish it all before the holidays end...and plus we got the SBE project...i still thinking no wonder some ppl yg masuk KPLI got mental-mental sikit later after they finish the course... so tiring and so distressing us... i can say, only God knows what we feel right now and how hard it is for us....huhuhu...
Later after this holidays..we also got many project to be done...and i'm wonder how i might be after that...huhuhu...the best part i can get from this course is actually i lose my weight...and i'm very happy to tell u all that if before this i was 64.5kg but now i am 60.5kg...hahaha..can u all imagine that??? i also cant imagine...now i am very happy that i can use back all my kecik-kecik punya baju...huhuhu... and my BF really dont believe it when i told that...he said, plez send me the pic. i want to see it..hahaha..funny lei.. my BF is actually in Aulbry right now. He have been there since last January.... but on this 5th of April he will be back!!! yes!! i miss him really much...
So i think thats all for now...c u later on the my next post...
Last but not least...Expect the unexpected in ur life and pray to God for guidance...
Have a nice day and enjoy ur holidays...
Luv ya...
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